Hope

Slow and steady wins the race, supposedly, but it doesn’t feel like that when you go on somewhere around 5 job interviews a week, only to be ghosted by usually all of them. It’s hard when you know that you are meant for greatness, when everyone tells you how much they believe in you. I am confident and know that I’m capable, but sometimes it’s hard to keep the hope alive. I’ve felt myself smiling through it all lately, and I am a joyful person. I had my aura read this year, and I am mostly a yellow, so I know this to be true! Lately, I’ve heard myself speak in my usual cheerful and bright tone, only to feel my face drop and let out a heavy sigh two seconds later.

It’s a season of life where I know good things are coming, and I just keep showing up. Because I believe that my life is wonderful, but I am tired of waiting for something good, something better to happen. My usual answer to this is okay, it’s time to throw in the thespian towel, no more acting for me! I really mean it this time! But I’ve grown from those conversations; acting is the twin flame that I will never escape. It brings me to this question that I’ve had for the longest time, which is how to manifest the life that you want, even when you recognize that you don’t have the thing that you want…yet. I know you have to meet your manifestations with action, make moves that will bring you closer to the reality that you are seeking, and also practice detachment. Live in the manifestation, focus on the feeling that you will have once those things are realized.

But when you haven’t worked in a year, and you’re doing all the right things, and you’re keeping the dream alive, and still the movement is undetectable. How do you trust the universe? How do you have hope? Mostly, I want a win, even if it’s the teeniest whisper of what is to come. So I don’t have any answers or real opinions for you today. But I would love it if you left me a comment with some of your hopes and dreams so we can celebrate and cry together—whatever the situation calls for :)

#absolutelyfulfilledfabulouslyf*cked